Frustrating Feeling.

This entry will probably end up being relatively short comapred to others that I've written. I just need to vent a bit. One of the most frustrating feelings that I can have is to feel powerless in certain situations. Now I know that most things in this world and this life, for that matter, are simply out of my control. I'm perfectly fine with that. My problem is wanting to do something, but not being able to. Also, I can usually have a good feel for when things aren't right and I want to help solve those problems; however, right now there's nothing I can do and that bothers me. Actually, it doesn't make me angry or upset. On the contrary, it makes me feel awful that I can't be there. Ah well....it is what it is. All I can do is wait for my moment and then deal with it then.

Choices

I feel this blog is very appropriate for the way I'm feeling right now and a perfect introduction for the next topic that I want to cover in my next blog. Lately I've been dealing with the struggle of making the right choice in a variety of situations. During that struggle, I analyze every possible outcome, positive and negative, and drive myself crazy and ultimately decide on not doing anything at all because I'm overly concerned with dealing with an outcome that I do not want.

After reaching a breaking point, I've realized that I cannot continue to worry about making the right or wrong choice because choices are neither wrong nor right. They are simply choices. The outcome that follows may either be desired or perhaps unfavorable and I have to deal with it at that time. That's the only way to continue to moving forward. Driving myself crazy and never making a choice will never move me forward at all.

I've come to the conclusion that I know what I want and I have an idea of what I'm looking to get out of this world. I have chosen a path for myself and I'm sure there will be problems along the way, but I will resolve them as they occur. As I go forward, I ask for advice from trusted friends, but the decision still comes down to me. I will take their advice into consideration; yet, I'm still going to pursue what I want and feel is right. Sometimes I've been worried about making the choice that my friends feel may be a poor one, but they are just giving my their opinion. Thinking that I'm going to let them down is a ridiculous notion. Regardless of what happens, I know that these friends who I value so highly and dearly will be there to either celebrate with me or help pick up the pieces if everything comes crumbling down.

Additionally, I've been critical of other people for making decisions that I felt were either bad or would lead to something unfortunate. Now while I feel had noble intentions, it's not my life to live. At the end of the day, I will go back to my life and those people will be left to live with the choices they made and they will not affect me. All I can do is be there when needed, but let them go after what they want.

Once everything is said and done, if I or anyone feels that they have gone after what they wanted and given everything they have for it, then they made the right choice. If the outcome isn't what they wanted, we can all say we tried. There's nothing worse than never trying because you spent all your time wondering how to make the perfect choice instead of just making the choice you want.

You're Beautiful.

Know what is breathtaking? Well, we all have our own answers to that question. In fact, I have a few, but the one I'm going to write about in this blog is the sight of a beautiful woman. Now I don't want anyone to confuse my use of beautiful with other adjectives such as "hot," "sexy," "alluring," etc. Beautiful stands alone from all of those and in my opinion stands above them as well.

Let's get into this. I've always wanted to see a beautiful woman in her purest form. She's not wearing any makeup and her hair isn't done. She's not trying to impress anybody and frankly, she doesn't have to. That to me is what I love to see. As you look upon her, you can get lost in her eyes and before you know it, you're sitting there with a goofy look on your face as she asks if you're ok. Even if you've just had the worst day of your life, her smile makes you smile. Every detail that she doesn't like, you love about her because it is uniquely hers and she's just not the same without it. All of those things can be found in true beauty.

I want to add that beauty isn't just on the surface. When I talk about being beautiful, I mean inside and out. I'm talking about the essence of that woman: her personality, her quirks, her idiosyncracies. All of those little things she does when she's at her most comfortable and not being guarded because she trusts you. Everything from her strongest qualities to her flaws are points that you love about her. Finding that sort of beauty is wonderful thing.

Now, the old saying goes, "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder." Certainly, this is true because what I find beautiful, many of you out there may not. However, I do feel that we are all looking to find that kind of beauty, both inside and out, in a person that makes us happy. We all want to experience those types of feelings. Finding it is the first step and that is amazing, but being able to enjoy it is the harder part, yet by far the most rewarding.

Thank you and Good Night.